

I would need less than 0.5lb per week to reach that goal. My goal was to be under 140lbs by then and I am confident that I can do that now that my mind is in the right place. We are down to 8 weeks until California and the day we get back home is the first weekend of the pool being open, so this is the home stretch before "summer." I say it like that because there's still snow on the ground and below freezing temps, so who knows when of if summer will get here this year. It took careful planning and tracking to hit that each day, but I chose more filling options, making me less inclined to go looking for a little something sweet after I'd already eaten a meal.

I am down to one nursing session with Izzie now, so my daily points target is back to the lowest that anyone can have at 26. Granted, this time I gained 5lbs in a two month period, whereas I was gaining 5lbs a month in Germany. Seeing the number on the scale get up to 145.4lbs a week ago scared me and gave me anxiety, thinking back to Germany. This week is when I finally buckled down. It gets me every year, and now that the last party (of ours at least) is over, I am gearing up to drop the few pounds I've gained and get back into fighting shape for summer! That's a lot of chocolate, cake, and eating out. In less than a calendar month, we have Valentine's Day, both kids' birthdays, their parties, and then my birthday. I've finally done what I've said I was going to do at the start of the month - gotten back on track.

A few days later, I saw the same dress in the store, in a size 8 and $20 cheaper. I settled on a size 10 because I really had never worn a dress in a size smaller than that. I had been in the department stores and not seen anything I liked, so I looked online and saw one that might be nice, but I debated on which size to buy. I bought a few new dresses for summer in general, a wedding, and my brother's college graduation. I wore my size 8 bermudas the other day and they were super comfy and had me thinking I could get into a size 6, but they might be a bit restricting. I can tell because the clothes sizes are going down in number. I plan to do measurements to commemorate my one year gymiversary this weekend and I'm sure there will be changes there as well. Even though my number seems to be hovering between 142-145lbs, my body fat percentage has decreased from 26.2% to 25.2% so at least some of the weight has become muscle rather than fat and I am happy enough with that. again, taking me out of the gym for a week, which never helps. I didn't every time, but when you are tempted week after week, you give in. It's hard to say no to cake every single week. We've been to a record five birthday parties in the last eight weeks and another two weekends in there were my kids' birthdays. It's been about three weeks since my last weigh-in and some weeks have been better than others in that time. He knows we eat good food so that we can grow healthy and strong. There's no connotation about it being to lose weight. I don't put myself down in front of them (not that I put myself down too much in my head anymore) and when we go to the gym, Brady knows I'm there to exercise, which is something he likes to do too in his own way. I am so glad I could do this before my kids no any better so as not to give them body image complexes. I am beyond excited about buying all new summer clothes.

In terms of general sizing, I've gone from XL to mainly M with some S mixed in here and there (usually in women's sizes not juniors). I went from a size 16 pants to a size 8 and a size 14 dress to a size 6. 2 inches from each arm, 8.75 inches from my hips, 7.75 inches from my waist, 5 inches from my bust, and 5.25 inches from each thigh, bring the total to 36 inches lost! That's almost an inch per pound which is insane to me. That number alone is so great, but when combined with the number of inches lost really blows my mind and you know I am easily my hardest critic. In one year, I've gone from 179.4lbs to 142.8lbs, a net loss of 36.6lbs. I've spent a whole year being faithful to working out and am beyond pleased with the results! I have never gone more than two months in a row being consistent with going to the gym before now. It's been one year since I stepped into the gym for the first time after having Izzie.
